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About Body Talk Jewelry
I created Body Talk Jewelry to tell a story and start a conversation.
I've lived in chronic pain since I was 12 years old. When I was 19 I had my 1st major surgery to help with severe pain. The docs urgently removed 3 benign ovarian tumors. I lost 1/2 my ovary that day & gained a 4 inch scar. But I was still in pain.
When I was 29, I had almost the same surgery again - 3 more tumors removed. This time I got a 6 inch scar.
But the pain never went away - it actually got worse over the years.
I continued to suffer for years. Medical professionals dismissed my pain time and time again. I was put on more hormonal treatments and birth controls than I count - each with it's own set of debilitating side effects. It was during this time without a diagnosis that I found an online support group for people with endometriosis. I received more information from my online chronically ill community than I ever did from my multiple medical professionals.
At 33, I finally found a doctor who believed my pain and was an expert in endometriosis. I underwent a diagnostic surgery, where my surgeon found that it had severely damaged my uterus, ovaries, bladder & cervix. I received my diagnosis that day along with a complete hysterectomy. This resulted in surgical menopause, which was debilitating in and of itself. Menopause at such a young age triggered debilitating symptoms & a hormonal migraine disorder, forcing me to stop working. I also had to relearn how to use my pelvic muscles through months of Pelvic Floor Therapy, which finally restored my bodily functions without pain.
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My illness has touched everything in my life, especially my sense of self. I've had to figure out who I am while living in pain & fear, also while dealing with constant changes in my body.
While I try my best to survive it all, along the way I have struggled to figure out my identity, my body, how to survive pain & how to use my voice.
For a long time I viewed my body as an obstacle to my ability to live fully. I pretended my illness & scars did not exist. I denied my reality & tried to separate it from my relationships, my work, my identity. In doing so, I silenced my own story.
Until one day I realized I deserved better. I went to therapy & finally learned how to love myself because of who I am & what I've been through - not despite of it. I began telling my story and was quickly embraced by an entire community of people eager to discuss what it means to live with illness.
It took years and the love of other disabled folks to understand that my body, with all of its experiences, is a symbol of survival. I began to wonder how many more people could be helped if conversations about our bodies became more commonplace.
I made Body Talk Jewelry to tell my story and get people talking about what it means to live in changing, chronically ill bodies.
I hope my Body Talk Jewelry serve as a reminder to my customers of a few things my body has taught me:
Be grateful for your beautiful body. It's doing it's best, just like you.
You, even at your most vulnerable, are deserving of love.
Speak your story, even when your voice shakes & breaks.
Love yourself, scars & all.